Can you believe it? It's already been a whole 30 days since my year & a day project has begun. The truth is I thought I'd feel different, and that somehow by making one small change everything would change. Isn't that the irony of being human, we put some much faith & weight into one decision expecting it to have ripples. Only to realize that making a decision isn't the same as continuing to make that same decision.

You don't just wake up one day and say I'm going to change my life by starting to eat right and then poof suddenly you're a gluten-free vegan who runs marathons. Change doesn't work that way. No matter how hard we wish it would.

The truth is not much has changed, but I know that with every yes I am changing and in time I will break the habit of saying no and embrace who it is that I want to become. Right now I am still struggling against the default of saying no and struggling with the illusion of grander feeling insecure with my seemingly small progress.

But today I celebrate the good, the change no matter how small. Even as part of me wishes and longs to have done more. I still said yes, I still made changes. But this never meant to be a one & done it was meant to be a journey.